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Originally posted on Facebook.  I was going to do a survey type thing/meme, but then I realized...this sums up my year.  :)

I remember the last time I wrote one of these notes, and the place I was in.  This year I've been in a state that was a hundred times worse,and then I dropped all that negativity, and brought back my positive attitude, my hope, and just generally being confident in myself.  Iwanted to share a few things I learned in 2012, and talk about where I'm at, for 2012.

I learned that it's okay to cry, but as I promised myself in 2011...I only cried when I needed to.  Things that would have broken me before didn't hit me so hard this year.  I saved my tears for when they really mattered.

I learned that it's okay to be sad, to give yourself permission to "not be okay" in the hopes that if one day is bad, the next day will be better.

I learned that things change, sometimes slowly, sometimes in the blink of an eye, or the beat of a heart, and that you have to change
with them

I learned that it's okay to be brave, and that sometimes couragepushes fear out of the way and whispers, "I'm going to do this," - whether it's new responsibilities at work, admitting to a life-changing mistake, saying the words that will forever change the way people lookat you, or taking the first step to open your heart to someone

I learned that it's okay to miss people - friendships, lost loves ones.  And I learned that sometimes those people come back - and
sometimes they don't.  I learned that it's okay to wish that things could be like they once were - but that you don't always get what you
wish and that more often than not, you have to be ready to greet the next chapter of your life - new friends, a new job, etc - with eyes wide open.

I learned that if someone is supposed to be in your life, they will be.  And I learned that of all the things I can and should do, chasing after someone to keep them in my life doesn't work.  Friends move on.

People let go.  And if you're lucky, someone new will be there to take your hand. For the friendships that waned (Julie), others were there to fill in those spaces (Dawn, Holly)

I learned that my heart is stronger for the cracks.

I learned that the more often you smile, the lighter you feel.  I learned that laughter really IS healing

I learned to forgive.

I learned that the best friends are the ones who - despite how often or how little you talk - when you DO see them, it's just like it'salways been

I learned that love is sometimes waiting, just when and where you least expected it.  To [ profile] twirly: here's to OUR 2013.  May we laugh, love, grow closer, and just generally treat one another with amazing kindness and patience as our love grows. 

I learned that with the help of amazing friends, I can "be better."  [ profile] _touched taught me that.

Here's to an amazing 2013 full of laughter and love, and being the best "me," I can possibly be.

Date: 2013-01-01 03:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
2013 will be our year, even though we didn't expect 2012 to be ours. so much to look forward to in 2013. holy cow. i love you. ♥

Date: 2013-01-01 04:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
<3 <3 I think it definitely will be a great year for us as individuals, and together! Love you so so so much.

Date: 2013-01-01 07:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Brooke taught Peyton that they could "be better..." and I just took their lead and ran with it, because I always believe in our friendship - in you mostly - and I knew that eventually we would find our way back to it and begin to mend and heal. It has been an year full of amazing blessings and sorrowful lows with some cracks in the foundation along the way, but I do believe that whatever we put our hearts, minds, and heads to in the new year that we will be able to achieve anything. Together. Our friendship is one of the most precious gifts that this past year has given to me and I'll take care of it to the ends of the earth and back. And I have to stop now, before I actually make myself cry but...

Doctor: And before I go...Rose...Before I go, I just wanna tell you, you were fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. And d'you know what? So was I.


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