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Originally posted on Facebook.  I was going to do a survey type thing/meme, but then I realized...this sums up my year.  :)

I remember the last time I wrote one of these notes, and the place I was in.  This year I've been in a state that was a hundred times worse,and then I dropped all that negativity, and brought back my positive attitude, my hope, and just generally being confident in myself.  Iwanted to share a few things I learned in 2012, and talk about where I'm at, for 2012.

I learned that it's okay to cry, but as I promised myself in 2011...I only cried when I needed to.  Things that would have broken me before didn't hit me so hard this year.  I saved my tears for when they really mattered.

I learned that it's okay to be sad, to give yourself permission to "not be okay" in the hopes that if one day is bad, the next day will be better.

I learned that things change, sometimes slowly, sometimes in the blink of an eye, or the beat of a heart, and that you have to change
with them

I learned that it's okay to be brave, and that sometimes couragepushes fear out of the way and whispers, "I'm going to do this," - whether it's new responsibilities at work, admitting to a life-changing mistake, saying the words that will forever change the way people lookat you, or taking the first step to open your heart to someone

I learned that it's okay to miss people - friendships, lost loves ones.  And I learned that sometimes those people come back - and
sometimes they don't.  I learned that it's okay to wish that things could be like they once were - but that you don't always get what you
wish and that more often than not, you have to be ready to greet the next chapter of your life - new friends, a new job, etc - with eyes wide open.

I learned that if someone is supposed to be in your life, they will be.  And I learned that of all the things I can and should do, chasing after someone to keep them in my life doesn't work.  Friends move on.

People let go.  And if you're lucky, someone new will be there to take your hand. For the friendships that waned (Julie), others were there to fill in those spaces (Dawn, Holly)

I learned that my heart is stronger for the cracks.

I learned that the more often you smile, the lighter you feel.  I learned that laughter really IS healing

I learned to forgive.

I learned that the best friends are the ones who - despite how often or how little you talk - when you DO see them, it's just like it'salways been

I learned that love is sometimes waiting, just when and where you least expected it.  To [ profile] twirly: here's to OUR 2013.  May we laugh, love, grow closer, and just generally treat one another with amazing kindness and patience as our love grows. 

I learned that with the help of amazing friends, I can "be better."  [ profile] _touched taught me that.

Here's to an amazing 2013 full of laughter and love, and being the best "me," I can possibly be.

yourgravity: ([stock] dream.)

Just a quick concert recap, both for anyone who might be interested and considering seeing these groups, and also, to go OMG YAY!  I had the best time in Nashville, even with the slight confusion over where the hotel was (I don't go to Nashville very often, sadly.)  And the entire last 48 hours - whoa.  I was up way late on Thursday, then way early on Friday to head to Murfreesboro to shop, then to Nashville.  The concert let out around 11:00, and after we wandered around downtown for awhile, my mom and I ended up at the Hard Rock Cafe (onion rings and chicken tenders!) and then we got back to the hotel and actually in bed (for me at least) at around 1am.  Then I had to be up at 4:45am to get up, get on the road, and back home to work a 12 hour day in the concession stand for the LAST day of their youth football league's games.  OY. 

So needless to say, last night, I was a tired girl.  But it was SO SO SO worth it.

Eden's Edge played first, and their lead singer was WAY too chatty with the audience.  I only knew one or two of their songs, and they've got a good sound, but nothing too special - they're just super radio friendly.  The more the lead singer talked, the more annoying her screechy voice got.  *shudders*

Then it was the Eli Young band!  My reaction: "FUCK YES!"  I was up on my feet as soon as they hit the stage!  They played "Always the Love Songs," "Small Town Kid," "Say Goodnight" (wherein I went all melty), "Crazy Girl," and "Even If It Breaks Your Heart."  Let me tell you, there's NO studio magic happenin for these guys.  They sound AMAZING live.  "Even If it Break Your Heart" made me tear up in a good, inspiring way.  I wish they'd played for hours!  They were really engaging and gracious, talked a bit about how much their lives had changed with "Crazy Girl," which really got them - finally - the recognition they deserve.  I wish more than anything they had played "Guinivere" from their Jet Black and Jealous album, but ah well.  It's just AMAZING seeing these guys, who I've loved for years now, finally getting successful!

After that, it was time for Little Big Town to hit the stage.  I haven't liked as much of their recent music for some reason, but they played several favorites, and several off "Tornado," their new album, which was awesome - because now I may actually end up buying it.  So thanks for the sampler!  haha.  They played "Pontoon," "On Your Side of the Bed," "Tornado," "Bones," "Bring It On Home To Me" (!!!!!!! shout out to the second album!), and "Boondocks."  I was on my feet singing and dancing during "Boondocks!"

Then the LONGEST WAIT EVER while the producers of "Nashville" came out and took some shots of the audience to use on the show...then...finally.... RASCAL FLATTS!

Oh man, what to say about my boys?!  They were so happy to be back in Nashville - home for them.  They hadn't played a Nashville show in a few years, so they did something awesome: they let us shout out songs we wanted to hear, then they picked about four and played them.  I got to hear: "Take Me There," "Mayberry," "Why Wait," and one more I'm forgetting.  Then Jay played "Lean On Me," and showed off his piano talents, and Joe Down made a guitar do things I didn't know a guitar could do!

But to back up, they came out to the first chorus of "Changed," then did the requests, then played "Hot In Here," (and by this point I was dancing for all I was worth and singing at the top of my lungs.  HEE.  After that, they talked about how happy they were to be back in Nashville, then they boys all joked around with each other for awhile, had each section ("their" sections) of the audience cheer the loudest - I was in Gary's section!!!!  Then they played "Open Arms" by Journey and God bless his heart, Gary was living that one up, you could tell. 

After that, they played "Fast Cars and Freedom," in which I teared up (makes me think of good memories," and "Bless the Broken Road," where I outright cried thinking of just a LOT of things, including how happy I am to be where I'm at now.  Gary talked a little after that song about what it meant to them, and how if you ARE on a "broken road," there's always the option of turning to God for help.  I'm not overly religious, but I DO believe, so of course when he was doing that, and he was doing a mixture of talking and singing, it was a bit emotional, but kinda cool, too!

They sang "Come Wake Me Up," and I HAD to call and leave [ profile] twirly a message.  I bawled my way through that song, because damn, it's SO beautiful and makes me think of a fic Kay and I are writing. 

Then Gary came out just with a guitar and started playing "Stand," which made me cry AGAIN.  It's SUCH an incredibly inspiring song for me, and it makes me think of two of my close friends and some memories we made in 2006. 

The guys traded off during songs, which I loved.  Suddenly songs that normally Gary is the only one who sings in them, Jay and JD got to sing too!  Which is like: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.  I just, I fell for them all over again.  They may be who they say they are, and they may not be, but what they definitely are is MY favorite musicians, hands down, FOR EVER AND EVER. 

They did "Banjo," from the new album, so I squee'ed of course, because THAT song makes me think of being in Florida in April, heading to the beach, because we heard it a lot there.

They did "Here's to You," almost last, which was awesome, since that's there song for their fans.  I've loved that one ever since I first heard it!  Then they sang "Me and My Gang," which was a good song to dance to, as was "Summer Nights," even though it isn't summer anymore.  heehee.

Another song I teared up during is "My Wish."  That one is just SO SO SO beautiful.  It made me think of loved ones and friends, and what I want out of life for them.  And it made me think of a few people who aren't in my life anymore, but whom I still wish well.  And it made me think of a certain someone, too! 

"These Days," made me all nostalgic when they sang it, and I'm SO SO glad I got to hear it live again.  I remember taping - with a cassette tape - that one off the radio in...2003 I think it was, when it was their single off the Melt album. 

Then they closed with "What Hurts the Most," which of course made me cry, but it was so beautiful, probably the BEST song they did all night.  I just, I adore that song so much.  It made me remember where I've been, so it was bittersweet, but it also made me realize that that won't ever be me again - in a relationship that ends without me telling the other person how I feel.  It's a sad song, but it puts things in perspective, and the boys did it justice.

Then they had everyone out for an encore and played "American Band," which was pretty kickass. 

So overall a GREAT GREAT night.  I could have sat there all night listening to them joking around with each other and singing, but the show had to end.  I had a lot of fun.  I sang and danced, and screamed and went a little hoarse.  I can't wait to do it all over again, and I really hope they come back to Nashville next year (and that I have a better camera by then!)
yourgravity: ([stock] not lost.)

Just got in from an early 4th-of-July BBQ/hootnanny with the friends.  I feel so happy to have them in my life.  Tonight was a few people I'm used to and a few new people, and all around was a ton of fun.  We hung out from 4 until about 1am just laughing and talking and catch up, playing a (really horrible) game of volleyball and other stuff, eating great food, and having fun.  I feel so blessed in that aspect of my life! 

I made a HUGE choice tonight.  I signed up for Take Shape For Life and I'm over the moon about it.  It's a big lifestyle change, cutting out things like sweets, soda, and fast food (except for on an every once in awhile basis.)  For so long I resisted, thinking it was a crash diet, or a way of "cheating."  But now I can see that it will - hopefully - teach me how to make healthier eating choices, and do it in a way so that I hold myself accountable, but I also have a "coach," who's a good friend of mine who will help keep me motivated.  It must work, because her results have been amazing in about two years, and I've seen that happen, plus heard success stories, and had their program vouched for by a nutritionist friend of mine.

I've been wanting to lose weight for a LONG time.  That's no secret.  I need willpower and I need help.  I haven't been able to do it on my own, or by joining a gym.  I always give in and give up.  I always say that this time is different, then it isn't.  But I'm starting to get really scared for my future if I don't lose, and worse, if I keep gaining.  I'm hoping that by doing this - by investing the money in their food, their plan, and by basically giving myself no other option, that I'll stick to my guns and succeed.  I look in the mirror and I see that I'm disappearing into my weight, and that terrifies me.  I have to try to change that.

Otherwise, it's SO HOT here.  It hit 100+ again today.  They're talking about not shooting off fireworks for the 4th in town this year, which they ALWAYS do.  I'm worried about the garden and the pool.  I hope it rains soon.  *does a rain dance*  I want to be outside swimming and being active, but this heat is just stealing everyone's energy. 

yourgravity: ([stock] squee-worthy.)

you can't describe the sea
unless you've been there before

{ ++ } I'm back!  I had an AMAZING WONDERFUL FANTASTIC time in Florida!  Real entry plus hopefully a few pictures to come this weekend.  Thanks to everyone who wished me a fun time!  I dozed on the beach, swam in the ocean, saw dolphins and a few sharks, ate, laughed, drank, sang, and cried when I saw the ocean.  It was the time of my life.  :) 

yourgravity: ([who]  amy;;.)

{ ++ } I'm packing now, and I'm afraid I have too many clothes.  LOL.  This time tomorrow I will have sat on the beach, seen the ocean, hopefully swam in the ocean, and had a blast.  It's starting to feel real.  I'm going to change into comfortable clothes for the car ride, charge my iPod, and see about getting something to eat so that I don't get hungry at 2am.  HEE.  It's hard to believe that soon, I'll be in Florida.  I'm looking forward to having a LOT of fun, and hopefully, taking a lot of pictures.  I wanted a new digital camera, but I didn't have the money, since I bought a few new shirts, new bathing suit, and a couple pairs of shorts.  Yes, I'm going to show Florida my marshmallow white legs.  ;)

{ ++ } This year is turning out to be what I want it to be: good.  I'm determined to make it a great one, from trips, to time with friends here, to writing original characters (YAY!) with [ profile] twirly, to maybe writing for myself.  I'm taking on more challenges at work, and trying like hell to get ahold of my personal life and get a lot of things back on track.  And just basically, bring it on, 2012!  I've suffered some lows this year, and I'm taking them in stride as much as I can, and looking forward to the highs.  (No jokes, [ profile] locriation!)  :D

{ ++ } See y'all when I see ya!


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